Were going away to Canberra in 4 days for a family/ friend visit and I have an awesome girls night planned on the Friday, were off to a fancy place for cocktails and some quality tapas and then probably some dancing! I haven't had a girls night since I moved to Adelaide (a whole year) and I'm so excited! I hope I am much better by then and can have a few champagnes without worrying about the awful effects mixing with pain killers (not that I would mix - I am well aware of those effects!!).
Then were off to Terrigal (Central Coast NSW) for a family Xmas with my granny who's going to be in hospital with a broken arm and cracked hip bone... poor thing, I am so scared this is going to be her last Christmas, I need to make a lot of trips up to visit her when I move back to Canberra next year. Shes got dementia too and gets pretty annoyed with herself... Being such a strong capable woman who's been the center of our family, we all look up to her so much and its hard to see her like this. I love her so much, I just want her to have a happy settled time for as long as she has left.
Just thinking about third and even second world issues (hell even first world, looking at the USA's recent shootings), my gran and my family all this stress to lose weight and pressure I put on myself seems so ridiculous! Why do I cut myself down every chance I get? Why do I pressure myself to lose weight and punish myself when it doesn't happen? I am trying very hard to love my body every step of the way. But I think I need to do better. C'mon Sonja, you're not over weight, you are on the right track to succeed in feeling better about yourself and if you continue you will get there. It's not something that will happen over night. And the way I've done it before was not healthy, it did not last and it put my health in jeopardy. I want to be healthy first and foremost and whatever happens happens. I will never be a stick thin person nor do I want to be. I just want to have muscles! And there coming :)
Ok, things could be so much worse, I have the world at my finger tips, in Australia we have so many opportunities as long as we recognise these opportunities and match them with what we want out of life we can do anything (anything positive that is)!
Even though my jaw is still really sore, swelling is going down and I'm getting a nice bruise, I think I am still going to do a 3 day split and 4 walks this week before we leave.
- Day 1: Legs and Triceps
- Day 2: Chest and Biceps
- Day 3: Back and Shoulders
I've got a follow up appt with the dentist tomorrow, I cant open my mouth too wide, pretty sure he will pry it open and rip all the stitches! OUCH! And I'm also scared because I can't brush all of my teeth properly with such a small gap.... I'm so disgusted! I hope I never have to have any dental work done like this again - once is enough.
Happy Sunday
Peace xxx
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