I moved back to Canberra in January after a pretty awesome Christmas break, lost a few kg and was starting to feel great, then we went to Thailand in March. Thailand was great, I had a lot of fun and saw a lot of things for the 4 weeks we were there but I totally let myself go... I was drinking and eating anything and everything I could, pastry's for breakfast and 2pm cocktails became an every day occurrence. Needless to say I came home 4kg heavier and bloated as hell.
Before we left for Thailand David proposed! Ever so excited, and also a little nervous, I was kind of on edge the whole holidays - thinking about how we were going to do the wedding, when and trying to keep my amazing diamond safe. I just wanted to rush home and tell everyone, but I had 4 weeks to wait! Oh the pressure and the excitement was too much to control so I buried it with booze and food. Good plan....
When we got home I was super tanned and a little heavier but did I do anything about it? Nope. I started clean eating again but half heatedly. We decided to pick a date that was less than 10 months away which encouraged everyone I told to raise their eyebrows and exclaim that I needed to get organised stat! So, I freaked out and stressed myself into a frenzy and organised the shit out of my wedding - as well as looking for a house to buy. Again consoling myself with the bottle and take out.
When my MOH came down we went wedding dress shopping, Oh the dresses!! Stunning, gorgeous, divine, I tried on so many and found the perfect one. It is stunning, strapless (which I thought I didn't want but this was perfect), figure hugging and very detailed. I put it on and felt so grown up, this is it I thought. We took pics and I paid the deposit and off we went. So excited and relieved that I'd found a dress... but now for the body! I mean, strapless and figure hugging.... yikes!
That was about 2 months ago... You'd think that would encourage me to eat better, well you'd be wrong! I haven't increased in size since, but I am still 4kg over my January weight and I am panicking about it.
So I got back onto the clean eating wagon and back to the gym but it just wasn't working for me, so I decided to look into other options, like last Nov I tried and failed the 12wbt - I actually got half way through and decided that Michelle Bridges plan was against everything that's right with this world and quit. I mean, 1,200 cals for everyone, no matter what age, shape and activity level you are - plus copious amounts of cardio? Give me a break! Not one person in this world is the same, yes, they will lose weight (and I did) but at what cost? My energy levels dropped dramatically and I didn't feel good. So, no thanks.
Back to the tried and trusted clean eating, but that wasn't enough to give me the kick I needed so this week I've started doing online PT with Amanda Marie from Daily Dose of Fitness. She practices IIFYM (If It Fits Your Macros) style of eating and so far so good. Amanda put together my macros at 110g protein, 133g carbs and 48g fat per day. Its freaking hard to hit my targets!! But I am ready to give it a go, give my health a go. On clean eating I wasn't even close to hitting my targets, particularly protein so hopefully I will see a difference soon - although I am still trying to get my head around eating more to lose fat..... and increasing my daily carb intake... I have to re-set my metabolism and stick to it. Along with doing a 4 day split weight routine and 2 HIIT sessions.... It's the cardio I will struggle with - I hate cardio!
So my wedding is in 6 months, IIFYM is going to dictate my feeding schedule from now till then, the beauty of that is I can eat whatever I want. Not that I will stray too far from my regular (clean) meals, but its nice to know that when I feel like something 'dirty' I can make it fit - as well as a weekly treat meal.
Anyway - I am going to map my progress (preferably not in numbers but in the way I feel) and see how it works :)
So far feeling good, however, I did have a treat meal yesterday that warped into a feeding frenzy - 1st week challenges. And I feel like crap today, acidy stomach and terribly lethargic. Lesson learnt.
Peace ya'll - It's good to be back, even if I am a little heavier and a little bloated!
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