Ok, so it's been about a million years (not even exaggerating) since I decided to start a blog to help keep me on track with my health - and I'm finally doing it!! Finally :)
So, where to begin? What is this blog all about? Well in short, me! This blog is about my new journey to becoming a healthy strong woman with the world ahead of me.
I have been struggling - like a lot of women I know, with weight issues. I was once around 78-80kg feeling disgusting, looking sick and completely depressed. I dumped the loser who was dragging me down into my worst black hole and picked myself up in a new state with a new attitude (I'll blog on this later).
I didn't know how to start or what to do so I just did what I thought I needed to do, joined a gym and ate better foods. Going through the motions I lost 10kg and floated around 65-70kg for a couple of years. I trialled a billion different diets - low carb, no carb, no fat, gluten free, dairy free, vegetarian, vegan, shakes, cleanse, detoxes, fasting, and even the popcorn and wine only diet - nothing was helping. I'd get super bored and over eating the same foods every day that I'd give up and binge on the things I told myself were BAD foods.
The worst thing for my weight loss was my attitude towards weekends. I wanted to have a good time, I wanted to make up for all those lost years with my ex that I would go out on weekends and binge drink until I found myself eating chicko rolls at 4am in the morning waiting for a taxi... this then lead to hangover KFC and then repeat drinking until the weekend was over. I'd then tell myself how useless I was and became more depressed. No wonder my weight wasn't going anywhere!!
Anyway, after about 5 years (yes this time I am not lying) all this partying, drinking, binging, negative talk and sadness took its toll. I got a bad reading on a pap smear and it freaked me out! All I could think about for the week waiting for my biopsy results to come back was that I needed to look after myself, this time its for real! I started to reduce my drinking and clean up my eating. I learnt new ways to lighten recipes and ditched the popcorn wine dinners! My boyfriend and I were newly dating so I tried not to let it hamper our date nights and weekends, which wasn't such a great idea! I let my new found energies slide and although I cooked better I did allow too many treats.
I've been getting 6 monthly biopsy's for the past 4 years with no changes, good or bad so that's a plus but my weight has been hovering around 64kg for years! My boyfriend has lost a heap of weight since we met 3 and a half years ago but I haven't. Lack of self discipline is my downfall. I will eat almost as much as David when we are eating out and I will drink more than I should.
About 3 months ago I decided enough was enough! I want to look and feel good in a bikini this year, I did some on line research and I found Amanda from Amandas Daily Dose of Awesome - who was just starting out with clean eating plans. She has gone though her own battles with being overweight and took it by the balls! She looks amazing and is such an inspiration to me!! so I approached her.
I've spent the last couple of months forgiving myself for all the negative talk that has stripped me bare and am trying to rebuild on it. I did pretty well for the first month but I am now starting to slip... So I have decided to start a blog to keep me accountable and honest with myself.
Phew - so there it is folks (if any folks actually read this) that's the beginning of my story.
Peace
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